~Letters from the Monastery of My Heart: I~

By WordWulf, 22nd Feb 2011 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/1nnj2hqo/
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~Ever had Poe, Nietzsche, Morrison, Manson loosening your mind nuts~raven speaking the dark night~Helter Skelter & oh, my damn, the music’s over here~goodnight my lady this~

~Confirmation of Darkness~

~Confirmation of Darkness~

Monkish, I am a monkey starving in the limbs of a barren tree watching the ape community thriving
on the lush jungle of life, unwilling, unable to join them, surviving by consuming vermin crawling through the skin of my brain.

There is a tin man howling whose body is a whistle stop where blackbirds rest and cackle, dance across his stiff arms, make sport of his scarecrow appearance. I scatter seeds on the ground to get them off me.

A continuum of negativity has swallowed my universe, beginning with naked parents and the poor rags of their death. My lady’s kisses have been taken, carried away in strongboxes, offered free to strangers.

Struggling to find a peace of ground, running bare-skinned through a snowfield, my spirit howls out to the gods seeking confirmation of destiny, its voice singing a litany handed down from the cradleboard in chains, the slave camp of my being.

If not for the glad-song of my children I might swallow the carpet nails of life, sing a rasping, gushing blood-song, allow myself the strength and release of weakness. Yet do they sustain me, demand with the purity of their love that I stand diminished, love them unconditionally.

She met me in a lightning storm, captured, ran away with my heart. Years grind our dearest dreams to dust. They become clouds to confuse and confound us. A poor lover, I struggle desperately to recapture what were, perhaps, only thoughts of a blind man who believed for a moment he could see.

Tom (WordWulf) Sterner
~Questioning Horsery~
~Esplanade~
~KEO/Legend of New Horse~

Meet the author

WordWulf
Tom Sterner lives in Redding, California and Arvada, Colorado with wife Kathy. He has been published in numerous magazines and on the internet, including Howling Dog Press/Omega, Skyline Literary Review, The Storyteller, and Flashquake. His interne...(more)